Every once in a while, I come across a prayer from someone who has gone before me or from a blog site that has a profound importance to me as a Christian. One of these prayers comes from a man named Thomas Merton. As I continue to try and understand what God is doing with me, this prayer seems to find its way to my heart.
Let us just say that at this present moment in my life, I am in a place where I am waiting on God to show me what He has in store for me. There are times in which I am scared and times I am excited to see how it is all going to work out. I am not very good at taking things one day at a time either, which makes for an easy lesson on obedience. I know my life is in the Master’s hand. He knows what I need and when I need it. It does not make it any easier to wait. It only makes it easier to realize I am not in control. This that in mind, I submit Thomas Merton’s prayer in hopes that it will ring true with all of us, especially when we have no clue what God is doing yet believe we are in His protection.
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you. And I hope that I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it. Therefore will I trust you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and will never leave me to face my perils alone. – Thomas Merton.